[ jyn's not particularly chatty — with illya, anyway. daisy and jyn have an easy rapport because they've basically bonded like long-lost twins, but that hasn't exactly translated a hundred percent on all avenues of this four-person household. daisy is getting closer to cassian, though. slowly but surely.
[ it's not that he hadn't noticed but she's been the only person to look at him that way. ]
Anyway, I do not think it is as easy as that for her, just admitting that there are more than just friendly feelings. So, she asked me how I knew because we started out...on uncertain ground.
[ shaky, they started out shaky and totally avoidant. ]
She is worried that past experience with him is coloring her feelings now.
like her world will drop out from under her feet if he disappears
[ she can say these things now, these casual admissions of the depths of her feelings, because illya already knows. hell, everyone knows. but there was a time when daisy couldn't even admit she liked him as a friend. ]
well, yeah. that's because it's terrifying. if i hadn't gotten hurt, we probably would have danced around the subject for another six months before we even got close to figuring it out
[ time to not think about that possibility ever. he does not want to think about a disappearance where she is involved. ]
You got hurt because you were being completely ridiculous and hard headed.
[ yes, he is still going to say that even months after the fact. ]
I think she wants to figure it out. But she is worried he will not want the same things. And I really do hope he does because I sense she'd be devastated if he does not.
[ she wouldn't show it but illya thinks it would wreck her. ]
No one had ever said that to me before, not in that way. I didn't know you meant permanently. If you keep being mean, I am not going to tell you the answer I gave Jyn when she asked me when I knew that I cared about you in more than a friendly fashion.
[ bring it on, sweetheart. ]
Maybe not for someone from the outside looking in but for Jyn, it is not that easy. She is genuinely struggling. It makes me think she hasn't been given many opportunities to take something she wanted.
[ she fights dirty. and you're gonna tell her anyway, because that's obviously why you messaged her, so!!! ]
maybe you should have picked relationship counselor as your fake job instead of fashion consultant.
[ but ... in all seriousness ... ]
you can't push her to be ready to own up to wanting it, though. if somebody had tried to push me, i would have just denied it. give her some time to get comfortable here first.
They both know what I do now. There is little reason to select another cover story. I'll just keep the absurd one I came in with for those that still question me.
[ would he tell anyone else? magic eight ball says reply hazy, try again later. ]
I agree. And until then, just be your typical supportive self with a side of sarcasm.
[ how rude!!! her arms are full, thank you very much, because she left work early to stop at the bougie grocery store near their apartment building — because she's in a good mood for once! she got a special assignment at work! she's excited about it!
look, while she unpacks her Futuristic Reusable Shopping Bag™: there's a bottle of something nice and a bar of Actual Chocolate (don't tell jyn), among the rest of the boring stuff she picked up just to fill the pantry. ]
[ a sappy but true statement. he slides in closer, ducks to kiss her cheek and then reaches above her for two plates. if she had her wish, they'd probably just eat from the box but pizza was greasy and he'd do the dishes. ]
Yeah, yeah. [ but she's beaming all the same, leaning into the touch enough to actually turn her face into it, catching the corner of his mouth before he straightens up again. affectionate, playful; someone's clearly had a good day. ] You're just smitten.
[ if he's going to grab dishes, she'll grab the wine opener and glasses. they can be Adults for once. ]
[ a wise woman once told him that. wonder who that could have been.
he piles the plates on top of the pizza box and takes it out to the sofa. they don't have to be total adults and eat at the table. they can eat here. ]
[ who could that have been? hmmm. guess he'll have to settle for a kiss instead as she settles cross-legged on the couch beside him, handing off one of the two glasses now filled. the bottle joins the box on the table. ]
A securities project. Remember I told you about the CSO? [ of course, after cassian and daisy had been called in to his office to discuss the bugs, the whole apartment had been debriefed. a non-disclosure agreement only extended so far. ] Apparently he likes my work.
[ the equivalent of the head of the kgb tapping illya specifically to handle something. ]
I remember. [ he takes his glass from her and rests it against his thigh while he passes her a plate that's already piled with a few slices of pizza. ]
Congratulations. I'm glad he recognizes the quality work you do. [ even after everything with the bugs. ] Do you know what type of project it is?
[ please reassure him that it's not too dangerous. ]
It's all digital. One of our competitors is running a predictive scan model on facial recognition tech, he wants me to try and come up with an alternative that uses our existing technology. Kind of beat the other guy at his own game, I guess.
[ it sounds complicated, and it will be — but it's the sort of creative digital application and redistribution that had made daisy such an accomplished hacker back in her rising tide days. given the level of technology at her disposal now, this shouldn't take more than just some serious attention to detail. and maybe a few more long nights at the office. ]
It kind of feels more like a challenge than a compliment, but at least it's not boring, right?
[ nothing worse than being put in entry level when you're overqualified. ]
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[ "pizza" — daisy is a simple girl who likes cheese and bread ]
i'm leaving now btw
what's up?
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[ he takes a second to put in an order for pizza since she was leaving now and it wouldn't take her that long to get here.
also, he knows what btw means and he's proud of himself. ]
Jyn asked to speak to me today. Just her and I.
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[ jyn's not particularly chatty — with illya, anyway. daisy and jyn have an easy rapport because they've basically bonded like long-lost twins, but that hasn't exactly translated a hundred percent on all avenues of this four-person household. daisy is getting closer to cassian, though. slowly but surely.
one day, he will even smile at her jokes. ]
about what? [ a beat. ] cassian?
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[ and she is going to know that way very soon. ]
She wanted to know how I knew I cared about you in more than just a friendly manner.
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because she's in love with him
[ duh. daisy writes this out like she's saying the sky is blue. it's just a fact. ]
she looks at cassian the way i used to look at you
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[ it's not that he hadn't noticed but she's been the only person to look at him that way. ]
Anyway, I do not think it is as easy as that for her, just admitting that there are more than just friendly feelings. So, she asked me how I knew because we started out...on uncertain ground.
[ shaky, they started out shaky and totally avoidant. ]
She is worried that past experience with him is coloring her feelings now.
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[ she can say these things now, these casual admissions of the depths of her feelings, because illya already knows. hell, everyone knows. but there was a time when daisy couldn't even admit she liked him as a friend. ]
well, yeah. that's because it's terrifying.
if i hadn't gotten hurt, we probably would have danced around the subject for another six months before we even got close to figuring it out
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[ time to not think about that possibility ever. he does not want to think about a disappearance where she is involved. ]
You got hurt because you were being completely ridiculous and hard headed.
[ yes, he is still going to say that even months after the fact. ]
I think she wants to figure it out. But she is worried he will not want the same things. And I really do hope he does because I sense she'd be devastated if he does not.
[ she wouldn't show it but illya thinks it would wreck her. ]
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the blame goes both ways
[ u wanna fight? ]
they share a bed, illya
he wants her
this isn't rocket science
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[ bring it on, sweetheart. ]
Maybe not for someone from the outside looking in but for Jyn, it is not that easy. She is genuinely struggling. It makes me think she hasn't been given many opportunities to take something she wanted.
[ sounded familiar. ]
I'm sure she will get there in time.
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[ she fights dirty. and you're gonna tell her anyway, because that's obviously why you messaged her, so!!! ]
maybe you should have picked relationship counselor as your fake job instead of fashion consultant.
[ but ... in all seriousness ... ]
you can't push her to be ready to own up to wanting it, though. if somebody had tried to push me, i would have just denied it.
give her some time to get comfortable here first.
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[ first time he'd ever used that word? perhaps. ]
They both know what I do now. There is little reason to select another cover story. I'll just keep the absurd one I came in with for those that still question me.
[ would he tell anyone else? magic eight ball says reply hazy, try again later. ]
I agree. And until then, just be your typical supportive self with a side of sarcasm.
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[ this is horrible and she's making a terrible face in public ]
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[ all right, that was even better than you're smitten. ]
You should get here soon or I'll eat the entire pizza.
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[ read: is anyone else home ]
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[ get your own pizza!!! ]
There are leftovers from last night in the refrigerator if they would like.
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[ does illya know how to cook for just 2 people? no. ]
come get the door
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but, he does as asked (because, of course) and pulls the door open for her. ]
Hello.
[ way to get here before he ate all your dinner. ]
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look, while she unpacks her Futuristic Reusable Shopping Bag™: there's a bottle of something nice and a bar of Actual Chocolate (don't tell jyn), among the rest of the boring stuff she picked up just to fill the pantry. ]
Hi. [ look at those pearly whites. ] Miss me?
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[ a sappy but true statement. he slides in closer, ducks to kiss her cheek and then reaches above her for two plates. if she had her wish, they'd probably just eat from the box but pizza was greasy and he'd do the dishes. ]
You seem very pleased with yourself.
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[ if he's going to grab dishes, she'll grab the wine opener and glasses. they can be Adults for once. ]
I got a project today.
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[ a wise woman once told him that. wonder who that could have been.
he piles the plates on top of the pizza box and takes it out to the sofa. they don't have to be total adults and eat at the table. they can eat here. ]
What sort of project?
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[ who could that have been? hmmm. guess he'll have to settle for a kiss instead as she settles cross-legged on the couch beside him, handing off one of the two glasses now filled. the bottle joins the box on the table. ]
A securities project. Remember I told you about the CSO? [ of course, after cassian and daisy had been called in to his office to discuss the bugs, the whole apartment had been debriefed. a non-disclosure agreement only extended so far. ] Apparently he likes my work.
[ the equivalent of the head of the kgb tapping illya specifically to handle something. ]
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Congratulations. I'm glad he recognizes the quality work you do. [ even after everything with the bugs. ] Do you know what type of project it is?
[ please reassure him that it's not too dangerous. ]
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[ it sounds complicated, and it will be — but it's the sort of creative digital application and redistribution that had made daisy such an accomplished hacker back in her rising tide days. given the level of technology at her disposal now, this shouldn't take more than just some serious attention to detail. and maybe a few more long nights at the office. ]
It kind of feels more like a challenge than a compliment, but at least it's not boring, right?
[ nothing worse than being put in entry level when you're overqualified. ]
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