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[kgbs]

Does it matter?

[ rey, you're lucky he's not going to give you up. ]

If you'd rather not talk to me, that is fine. I just thought I'd ask.

[evite]

don't put words in my mouth

[ she's only ever said how much she wants him, and this is his interpretation??? what the fuck?? ]

i just don't understand where this is coming from
did someone ask you?
is this because of you coming to visit?

[ she remembers sleeping on top of him. she doesn't remember if anyone would have seen. ]

[kgbs]

Yes, someone asked me.

[ if she has to know. ]

Again, I just thought I would ask your opinion. If you'd rather not talk about it, that is fine.

[evite]

well, what did you tell them?

[ fair is fair. ]

[kgbs]

I told them we were not.

[ for a myriad of reasons that he cannot tell her because that ruins the surprise he's trying to plan. ]

[evite]

[ ... oh.

why is she disappointed? isn't that what she said to begin with? what are these feelings? ]

sounds like you had it all figured it out

[kgbs]

Had what figured out?

[ what are you talking about? ]

[evite]

if you already answered the question, you didn't need me to answer it for you.

[ she can't do this right now, she feels like she's going to be sick. ]

[kgbs]

I asked because I wanted to know what you thought.

[ and he still doesn't know. ]

[evite]

i told you what i thought

[ a: lovers is a stupid word
b: you're not just a guy i hook up with ]

[kgbs]

You half told me. You changed the subject when I questioned you further.

[ don't think he hadn't noticed that. ]

[evite]

what did you call it?

[ this is entirely on you. you started this conversation. ]

[kgbs]

Never mind.

[ he should not have said anything about this to anyone. ]

It does not matter.

[evite]

then why did you even ask me in the first place if it doesn't matter???

[ WHY ARE YOU THIS WAY ]

what do you want me to say?
how many times do you want me to say the same things before you actually listen?

[kgbs]

[ there are many reasons, daisy. several novels worth. ]

I'm listening.

[evite]

you don't get to do that
answer the question

[kgbs]

Which one?

[evite]

what do you want me to say, illya?
do you want me to say yes?

[kgbs]

I want you to be honest.

[evite]

when do you think i stopped?
i've never lied to you
now answer my question

[kgbs]

I just did. I want you to be honest. That is my answer. I am not making your decision for you.

[evite]

i'm not asking you to make a decision for me, and i don't need you to spoonfeed me my opinions
god you are the most infuriatingly stubborn man i've ever met

[ and that's why she likes you. ]

you told someone we weren't
do you think this is a mistake?

[kgbs]

[ angry russian cursing. ]

I told someone we weren't because she asked while I was trying to get suggestions on where to take you when you were recovered and it was not her business.

[ god, he'd almost used an exclamation point. and now his attempt at a surprise was ruined. ]

Do you have any other questions now?

[evite]

yes
do you think this is a mistake?

[ bulldog biting down, she won't — can't — let it go ]

[kgbs]

Why would I think that?

[ this is exhausting. ]

No, I do not think it's a mistake before you give me a list of reasons why.