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Illya?

[ 👀

like, priorities, but 👀 ]

I'm glad you're being taken care of.
Do you need anything?

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you ever do a stupid thing for someone because you don't want them to get hurt?

[ yes, this is about the same thing ]

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Is that what you did?

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i didn't want him to get hurt
him or the kids

[ 60 / 40. the kids are her cover story. she hopes rey will protect that. ]

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I understand.
You know I do.

[ the kids. the fucking kids. ]

They're alone now. Even if their parents are out there, they're not likely to see them again.

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he could protect them better than i could
someone had to do it

[ she felt so justified, in the moment. but now she aches, and she worries, and she hasn't seen or heard from him since. ]

thank you for going with me.

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Don't.

I went with you then. I got slow later.

[ got stupid. got hurt. they're the same, she realizes to her great chagrin. her heart is empty with dread over what could have gone worse -- for either of them. would it crush daisy like it would crush her? ]

Next time, we stick together.

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[ the guilt would. add it to the list of names that keep her up at night. ]

i'll be there

[ and then, a beat later: ] and then maybe i won't make a fool of myself trying to protect someone who doesn't even want to see me

[ b i t t e r ]

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What?

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i'd say check the hospital logs but i don't even think we have those

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Illya.

[ she isn't confused about who. 'protect someone' and rey's own context covered that. ]

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no, kylo ren

[ #duh ]

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You wanted Kylo to see you?

[ sarcasm over text, man. ]

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rey
i was being sarcastic

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Oh
So you did mean Illya

[ why didn't she just say so ??? ]

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yes

[ head in hands she's so tired ]

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What do you mean he doesn't want to see you?

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he hasn't come to see me?
i mean i did get the shit beat out of me for him so you'd think he'd at least come to check in

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[ rey's not incredibly sympathetic to this assumption, and it has nothing to do with illya's conversations with her. rather, it's perhaps because daisy is being hasty to dismiss any alternative interpretation -- any more generous interpretation. ]

Did you ask him to?

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why would i ask him to?
if he was in the hospital, i'd come see him
isn't that basic common sense?

[ here's a question, daisy. why are you holding a man you refuse to put a label on to a higher standard than your actual best friend from home? because fitz hasn't come to see you either, and you're not whining about that. ]

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No.

[ rey doesn't explain further. doesn't explain that she's never had anyone come to visit her in the hospital, and she'd only visited finn once to say goodbye before she'd left for ahch-to because she couldn't stand to look at him and feel the guilt otherwise. some people don't know what the common sense around these things is. some people have never seen it. ]

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it should be

[ because she would, if she could. she'd never want anyone to feel as alone as she's felt. whether here in the safehouse or back in quarantine or even just in her van, the feeling of loneliness weighs the heaviest on daisy. ]

but i guess you're right

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I'll come see you.

Do you need me to bring anything ?

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the food here sucks

[ you can't take her on a date, rey, so bring the date to her. ]

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I'll bring food.
Do you like burritos?

[ because rey does ]