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i think so.

[ ashamed, a little. tired, a lot. muddling with emotions she doesn't quite know how to parse through. she still needs time to figure them out. ]

hurts to breathe, but strange is a good doctor
i should be able to go home soon

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What happened?

[ It was supposed to be an ordinary check-in, but apparently ... no dice. ]

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i got back to the safehouse okay after we split
got dragged out after, though

[ ran into kylo ren, hilariously enough. but not the point of this update. ]

long story short, i got my ass kicked by our friends in black trying to take down a drone

[forcevisions]

Enough to be in critical condition at the safehouse with Stephen?

[evite]

yeah

[ she could lie about it... but she has a feeling the truth would come out sooner rather than later. ]

i think i blacked out
illya carried me back

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Illya?

[ 👀

like, priorities, but 👀 ]

I'm glad you're being taken care of.
Do you need anything?

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you ever do a stupid thing for someone because you don't want them to get hurt?

[ yes, this is about the same thing ]

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Is that what you did?

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i didn't want him to get hurt
him or the kids

[ 60 / 40. the kids are her cover story. she hopes rey will protect that. ]

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I understand.
You know I do.

[ the kids. the fucking kids. ]

They're alone now. Even if their parents are out there, they're not likely to see them again.

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he could protect them better than i could
someone had to do it

[ she felt so justified, in the moment. but now she aches, and she worries, and she hasn't seen or heard from him since. ]

thank you for going with me.

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Don't.

I went with you then. I got slow later.

[ got stupid. got hurt. they're the same, she realizes to her great chagrin. her heart is empty with dread over what could have gone worse -- for either of them. would it crush daisy like it would crush her? ]

Next time, we stick together.

[evite]

[ the guilt would. add it to the list of names that keep her up at night. ]

i'll be there

[ and then, a beat later: ] and then maybe i won't make a fool of myself trying to protect someone who doesn't even want to see me

[ b i t t e r ]

[forcevisions]

What?

[evite]

i'd say check the hospital logs but i don't even think we have those

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Illya.

[ she isn't confused about who. 'protect someone' and rey's own context covered that. ]

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no, kylo ren

[ #duh ]

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You wanted Kylo to see you?

[ sarcasm over text, man. ]

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rey
i was being sarcastic

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Oh
So you did mean Illya

[ why didn't she just say so ??? ]

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yes

[ head in hands she's so tired ]

[forcevisions]

What do you mean he doesn't want to see you?

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he hasn't come to see me?
i mean i did get the shit beat out of me for him so you'd think he'd at least come to check in

[forcevisions]

[ rey's not incredibly sympathetic to this assumption, and it has nothing to do with illya's conversations with her. rather, it's perhaps because daisy is being hasty to dismiss any alternative interpretation -- any more generous interpretation. ]

Did you ask him to?

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why would i ask him to?
if he was in the hospital, i'd come see him
isn't that basic common sense?

[ here's a question, daisy. why are you holding a man you refuse to put a label on to a higher standard than your actual best friend from home? because fitz hasn't come to see you either, and you're not whining about that. ]