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the agent formerly known as skye. ([personal profile] evite) wrote2018-09-08 03:15 am

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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-17 06:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ at first, he thinks this is all about sparring. that she thinks he is going easy on her when that's the last thing he does when a spar happens. what good is training if you do not go full out. you don't get the best of your opponent and your opponent doesn't get the best of you.

but then something shifts in his head and he realizes she's talking about something else. sparring or. that's what she'd said precisely and then had gone on about how he was afraid to hurt her.

and he was especially when she was injured. he'd backed off, been careful, tentative, and easy as of late. ]


You're not talking about sparring, are you?

[ just to...double check. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-17 08:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ well, it was good to be able to eliminate one thing from the list. it's a short list and he really does not think she wants him starting arguments just to get some energy out which leaves him with only one thing.

when he realizes what that one thing is, he actually blushes a bit and turns his head away so she can't see. ]


I know what you're talking about. [ now. ] I don't want to hurt you.

[ even accidentally. that's not to say the prospect isn't intriguing and enough to make his heartbeat kick up slightly. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-17 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh.

[ oh. he's glad that she'd made sure to mention that she wasn't offering something like this just because she thought it might be an outlet he needed to get through some of his issues. he doesn't want that to be an obligation, something she thinks he needs to have in order to care about her.

he doesn't. he's not going to lie and say he doesn't like that side of their non relationship (or whatever they were calling it today) because he does. a lot.

it's just not a requirement. ]


I...wasn't aware. [ now he is though. ] I am now.
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
Safeword.

[ hey, you wanna know what illya's never done before in his long, russian life? have a conversation like this. he's aware of what she's talking about so he's not that bad off but he's just going to pick up his dinner and actually eat it for lack of anything to contribute because...

he doesn't really know what to add. so, he just nods along because sure, he's with you daisy and he's trying to eat meat wrapped with lettuce while he does that. ]


A good thing to have. [ since it has the word safe in it and all. ] All right.
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 05:36 am (UTC)(link)
I do not.

[ because he's never used one in his life because he's never had to have a discussion like this with any woman he's slept with because it's never been something that's come up.

but, he was never like this with any of those people either. he chews slowly and then swallows, considering her suggestion. ]


The word does not matter to me. I will remember whatever is decided upon. [ even if it was lettuce wrap. ] I've never had to have a discussion like this before.

[ A Truth. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 05:50 am (UTC)(link)
Yes.

[ and now he just feels like an idiot for admitting that. it would have probably been better with more detail but he'd always been the type to selectively reveal portions of his life to those he deemed deserving.

and most of the time, that was no one. he kept himself and his life locked up and secured away save for dossiers and files that narrowed his life down to a few words.

her expression tells him all he really needs to know about what he's said. is she disappointed? a possibility. ]


As I said, the word doesn't matter to me. Anything is fine. I'll remember it.

[ time to eat some more. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 06:14 am (UTC)(link)
[ and just like that, she's gone. he blinks as he watches her disappear while he sits on the couch, a plate of food balanced on one knee. he doesn't know...he doesn't really know what's just happened. had they finished the conversation? or had she wanted out of it so she'd gotten up to go shower?

it's something he sits there thinking about even while he dimly hears the water come on. does she want something like this to happen today? is she expecting him to do something when she's out of the shower?

he scowls a bit, glaring around the empty room before picking his own plate up and dumping it into his sink. he'll wash them tomorrow.

while she showers, he changes into a pair of cotton pants and a tee shirt, still debating on what to do when she's done with her shower. or maybe she wants him to go in there like she had done to him?

he's thinking about this too much. way too much. eventually, he returns to the kitchen to wash the dishes and grab some water before he pads into the bedroom and sits down, settling his things neatly on the bedside table.

does he know what he wants yet? no. but again, that's because he doesn't know what she wants him to want? that doesn't make sense. he's confused. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 06:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ his reverie is broken by her reappearance and he blinks, pulling himself out of his thoughts and focusing over on her. her hair's wet around her face and she's wearing another of his shirts and somethings tightens in his chest. he rubs at the spot idly even if he knows what's happening. ]

I come here all the time.

[ for once, he knows she's teasing and tries to play along even as he swings his legs up onto the bed and crosses his arms over his stomach to watch her. ]

And lately so do you.

[ called out. ]

Did you have a good shower? [ certainly had seemed that way by the humming and all. one corner of his mouth even curls up at that and he does nothing to hold it back. ] I haven't decided what to do.

[ but instead of staring pensively into space, he could just stare at her? ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I did.

[ and he doesn't regret that one bit. he doesn't mind when she just shows up or comes back with him after they've been out but he knows there's a significance when he does something because it's not typical. even he's aware of the fact that he's usually not the person to make the plans out of the two of them.

he doesn't immediately answer the next question because he gets a little caught up in watching her...do that thing with her hair. she's puddling water on his floor but he does not care. ]


I haven't made a list. [ because it was very hard to find paper in this city. ] Television. Sleep. Talking though you know I am no good at that.

[ other things probably. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 03:14 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm not tired.

[ he'd been a little weary earlier, upset at what he perceives as an inability to do anything to help those he kept close and the anger that he let course through him. sometimes, it was exhausting to be angry as often as he was but it's been such a facet of his life for so long that he has no idea how to change that.

he doesn't think he even wants to change it. he's an angry man who's trying to learn to outlet that in different ways since his life has been in a constant state of upheaval since his arrival to this place. ]


It was just one of the suggestions that I thought of. [ his suggestions are not all that exciting though. he chews on the inside of his cheek while he continues to watch her steadily. ] I'm fine. Wide awake. Fueled by lettuce wraps.
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 04:50 pm (UTC)(link)
[ perhaps one day he'll be used to her easy displays of affection but today is not that day. that doesn't mean he's shocked or expressing surprise in some obvious fashion but he still is albeit quietly and subtly. when you molded your life into something so isolationist and solitary, having that change in a short amount of time was going to take some time to adapt to.

but, he lets her move his legs around and sits back so she's more comfortable when she eventually settles. she turns on the television but his attention stays focused on her especially since she can't really see him looking. ]


No, this is fine.

[ he doesn't even know what's on. his eyes are roaming over the curve of a shoulder underneath his shirt, the wet ends of her hair, the way said hair lays against her neck, the warmth of her against his chest, and how he can feel her breathe through her back and his chest. ]

Perfectly fine.

[ whatever it is. ]
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[personal profile] kgbs 2019-02-18 05:42 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he could doze off, he realizes. he's warm and he feels less like he's losing control of a situation that is already slipping out of his grasp and she's there, doing nothing but giving him the comfort that her presence brings (when that had happened, he does not know). he could shut his eyes and he could fall asleep.

but then she touches him and he shivers, a reaction that banishes any sleepiness for the time being. he'd become so overly focused on just tracing the lines of her body and memorizing how she felt against him that he'd forgotten that touch could be a thing.

she hadn't. it's a light touch, a gentle touch so he tries to cover up the shiver by shifting like he was getting more comfortable and by saying nothing. watch the movie, ignore his sensitivity. ]

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