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[kgbs]

So, the answer is no?

[ that is what it seems like to him. ]

keywords, cries.

[evite]

you're not just some guy i hook up with, illya

[ don't make her do this. ]

:(

[kgbs]

What does that mean?

[ this was your own fault. ]

What am I?

[evite]

lover is a stupid term
where did you even hear it?

[ changes the subject. ]

[kgbs]

Does it matter?

[ rey, you're lucky he's not going to give you up. ]

If you'd rather not talk to me, that is fine. I just thought I'd ask.

[evite]

don't put words in my mouth

[ she's only ever said how much she wants him, and this is his interpretation??? what the fuck?? ]

i just don't understand where this is coming from
did someone ask you?
is this because of you coming to visit?

[ she remembers sleeping on top of him. she doesn't remember if anyone would have seen. ]

[kgbs]

Yes, someone asked me.

[ if she has to know. ]

Again, I just thought I would ask your opinion. If you'd rather not talk about it, that is fine.

[evite]

well, what did you tell them?

[ fair is fair. ]

[kgbs]

I told them we were not.

[ for a myriad of reasons that he cannot tell her because that ruins the surprise he's trying to plan. ]

[evite]

[ ... oh.

why is she disappointed? isn't that what she said to begin with? what are these feelings? ]

sounds like you had it all figured it out

[kgbs]

Had what figured out?

[ what are you talking about? ]

[evite]

if you already answered the question, you didn't need me to answer it for you.

[ she can't do this right now, she feels like she's going to be sick. ]

[kgbs]

I asked because I wanted to know what you thought.

[ and he still doesn't know. ]

[evite]

i told you what i thought

[ a: lovers is a stupid word
b: you're not just a guy i hook up with ]

[kgbs]

You half told me. You changed the subject when I questioned you further.

[ don't think he hadn't noticed that. ]

[evite]

what did you call it?

[ this is entirely on you. you started this conversation. ]

[kgbs]

Never mind.

[ he should not have said anything about this to anyone. ]

It does not matter.

[evite]

then why did you even ask me in the first place if it doesn't matter???

[ WHY ARE YOU THIS WAY ]

what do you want me to say?
how many times do you want me to say the same things before you actually listen?

[kgbs]

[ there are many reasons, daisy. several novels worth. ]

I'm listening.

[evite]

you don't get to do that
answer the question

[kgbs]

Which one?

[evite]

what do you want me to say, illya?
do you want me to say yes?

[kgbs]

I want you to be honest.

[evite]

when do you think i stopped?
i've never lied to you
now answer my question

[kgbs]

I just did. I want you to be honest. That is my answer. I am not making your decision for you.